Pain~~~

Argh~~~ My stomach is killing me again man!!! So pain~~~ T.T Today gonna book into camp le, fast right? Friday night book out then today book in... But at least better than army la... Army book out Saturday and book in the next day... Well, today is the same, woke up at 5plus am going to 6am... Then haven had a wink til now...
Damn boring sia, revised my test for this wednesday one liao then duno wad to do... Later will go to compasspoint to buy batteries back to camp...Hehe... Use it to charge my handphone when low batt!!! Wahahaha...
Not going up to my grandparents' place today cause my grandma is not at home... She went out to attend her friend's birthday!!! Haha... So gonna go up straight to camp from my home... Once in a duno how many months sia....Haha...
Oh shit... Argh~~~ Stomach...Pain...*OUCH*.... T.T

Sian man

Oh my GOD~~~ so freaking tired man... Haven't had a wink of sleep since i woke up at 3plus in the morning today... I went for a routine jog(was i crazy or wad?!?!) at 9 plus going to 10am, i guess... And i'm surprised that i can still managed to complete it without stopping for a walk... So kind of happy i guess... Then in the afternoon, went to Compasspoint for a while and then came home again... In fact the whole of today is a BORING day for me man... Actually wanted to go down to Tampines to find my friends Wanling, who's working in Best, and Sebastian, who's working in Addidas, but then it's too late... No appetite to eat also... Duno why....
Whole body is feverish.... Hope i dun get sick at this point of time... My law test is this coming Wed... Please dun let me get sick now... I have to pass the test by hook or by crook... Argh~~~ My hair is getting whiter... Shit... I'm gonna become an ah gong le... Help me!!!! Still wondering whether to go down to my bunkmate's bdae party at one of the pub... But then it will be damn late la... And tomorrow, i got soccer training in the morning somemore...
Well, looking forward to next week la.... May it come as fast as possible... And to those people who i know and are having their test or exams in the upcoming week like me, I wish all of you all the best and dun worry, you will be able to overcome and get good results in ur papers!!! Cheerios!!!

Peace!!!

Haix

Back from camp at last. Didn't had a great week in camp this week either... Getting tekan by everyone inside for the whole damn week... It's kindda been a very down-sided week for me... Been emo-ing all the way and worst still, i injured myself during the training on Thursday... Well, for the whole damn week, i can't sleep well and i can't do things well... Been very paranoid in eveything... But at least out of all this shit, there's one good news for me... Want to know wad?? I'm one of the person who scored the highest in our Senario Base Test for the whole of our intake...Haha.... 90%, can you believe it?!?!?! Apart frpm 2 of my friends who had 95% la.... And also my POP date had been confirmed and it will be on 23rd JULY 2008!!! So happy but then i duno if she can make it or not la... Yesterday was so scary for us... We thought we were going to get confined for some stupid reason but thank goodness the OC squad from squad 9 only reprimand us for half an hour and then he allowed us to walk out... So damn lucky la... Well, will be alone for the whole of today...

So damn sian sia... Duno what to do also... Anyway, next week will be my law exam and it will be on Wed afternoon!!! Hope i can pass it with good results like my SBT la... Praying hard... Do wish me luck la...

Yawn

Yawn~~~ Oh man, was at my cousin's house. Managed to have a short nap just now and feel quite energised now... But once the thoughts of stepping back into camp struck my mind, all my energy just saps away by itself... When will my POP arrive??? Please be fast rather than slow!!!! Both my cousins are playing Dragon Fable on Net while i jus sit and blog... BORING~~~ T.T Have to go back to my grandparents' place b4 heading back to camp!!! She's very busy today coz she's rushing her projects... Still didn't quite have a chance to tok to her yet... Hope that i don annoy or irritate her la... Actually wad i wan to do is just to support and cheer her on by her side...HAHA... Mustn't make her feel sad again by toking bout those things... Have to control and think wad i have to speak.... Just don wan the same things to happen twice... Her school term is starting tmr and i wished she will have the best start to it esp when her exams are around the corner, I hope and pray that she will be able to overcome and pass all her exams with flying colours!!!
Stepping into camp today means that i will only get to book out on Friday again... This week will be my study week... Which means we will have laights off at a LATER timing!!! Whoo Hoo~~~ That's what our OC told us la... Haha... We just hope it's true la... Hope that i will manage to get to tok to her in camp this week la... Praying hard!!! Hoping and crossing my fingers along the way...

Wishing!!!! :)~~~ T.T~~~

Phew...

Phew, at last, feeling much more better than this freaking morning...HAHA... Today is my youngest cousin's 1st month birthday, what we called MAN YUE in chinese, and will be going up to celebrate later before i report back to camp. My parents and sis have all went up except me... Left without telling me oso... They power sia... Haha... Wonder what we're gonna do later when i went up...
Actual fact, i'm feeling damn tired and bored coz got nothing to do and then have to go back camp later... Oh how i wish that my POP is tomorrow but no. My POP seems so near but yet so far!!! News came to my ears that it might be postponed to 1st August.... Damn long sia...
One of my friend whom i never contacted for a long time called me just now! Haha, so happy to have "found" a friend back after so long... Tok lots and lots of cock!!!! :P Seriously, at least it raised my "morale" to a certain level but there's still something that i'm waiting...
There's like a hole/emptiness in my heart and i'm searching for it... Wish me luck in finding it soon, ya!!!! Hope this coming week will be a good week also! Kampatei!!!
GO!GO!GO!

Argh

Heck... Dirreahoe.... Why is this shit happening to me again!!!! Arghh~~~~ Hate myself for it.....

Sick...

Hey, couldn't manage to sleep well and also woke up this early and nothing to do. Don tink i'm feeling too well... Well, at least i know that she's ok... That's all i can ask for, for now... Sometimes i wonder if i'm just too good like my cousin said bout me or i'm jus putting up a front of being happy and strong... There are times when i really needed someone to be near me and encourage me especially for the whole of last week in camp when my squad IC and his friends "declared war" on our bunk... Ivan, jus wanna thank you for talking to me and hearing out my problems and toking cock with me to cheer me up... Really appreciate it... Fuck... Why am i crying for what shit.... Arghhh~~~~ Stop it Terence.... You're a man... Man dun cry that easily....

To be true, normally i use to act up a front in front of people so they won't get worried for me but in me, the hurt, the sadness jus filled up in me when i'm alone whereever i am.... And i just keep thinking things that i shouldn't to make myself sad and getting emo... Wasn't that good for the last whole week of training for me... Felt like it was a shitty week.... As u can see that my first problem(on top)... And adding to that, i fainted during training (please keep it silent for those who are reading this and are my family members!!!) All i can do is to hope the coming week can be better.... My law test is coming soon and i can feel the pressure heaping on me and i for now, really dun wan to feel pressured at all sides, just for now....

Sometimes, i'm wondering what i can do to improve myself to be a better person and so to all who knows me and are reading my blog, please do not spare your criticism on me, will change for the better BUT after my test then do that.... I also know it's not good for others to worry about me that's why i usually don tell my problems to people... I just dun feel good letting them worried for me like Ivan, my family members, Stella. My mind is feeled with so much things right now that i dun no what to type oso... I think my weakness is so much more then my strengths!!! I can list my weaknesses out man:

1) Selfish at times

2) Self-centred at times

3) Naggy

4) Short tempered at times

5) Gets emo and it usually comes quite badly!

6) Thinks too much

7) Untidy

8) Lazy at times

9) Judgmental to those i dun like

These are some of them and there are more that i can't think of.... My strengths are for all you out there to list out and find out... Really feel very tired but really can't do anything about it... ARGHHH~~~~~ Just feel like killing myself and end all the things and troubles... Relationships with people can really be complicated, doesn't it... It's so fucking sticky that u can't get yourself out..... The words "Hate you forever"/"go and die, i never want to tok to you" can really knock sense into people.... As in make a person wonder if he's really doing the right thing.... But there's nothing one can do... Jus to swallow it down and be sad bout it...
Haix.... There's really too much in my mind for me to write... My head is spinning again... Duno why feeling giddy for the past few days.... And the problem is i can't sleep at all... All i wanted is to have a good normal life, with someone there for me, that everyone will be happy when they're with me and not feel sad or emo and many more for me to list out... But i dun think any of this have come true yet for me...
Heaven, are you playing a joke on me or you just simply want me to die?!?!?! If it's the second choice, jus do it, stop playing jokes on me!!! I had enough of it!!! This might make some of you angry with me but please dun be angry, coz that is what i'm feeling rite now... Jus treat it as i'm typing shit.... Haix....
:'(

My Stupidity does it...

Hey, actually, today not in a mood to blog but nevermind la... Went out this morning to the MAC near Stella's house as we planned to study there in the morning before we go watch movie. So we studied til around 11 plus going 12pm. Then we went to Doby Ghaut to watch "You don't mss with the Zohan" at The Cathay. After which, we walked to Bugis to shop. The show that we watched was funny but wasn't what we have expected. LOL...

We rested at Bugis Yakun before we went home. And jus the slipped of my tongue, i said something wrong to remind her of some sad things of the past. Really feel very bad about it. Stella, if you're reading this, jus wanna say really very very paiseh... It slipped my mind, please dun get mad at me la... kk??? Really very paiseh about it. Feeling very bad now, that's why didn't have much to blog about either... No mood to eat also (Duno why)....
Jus now after i reached home, jus feel a little giddy and very emo for duno what shit.... Haix... Hate this emo feeling.... It's killing me..... Someone help me.... :'(

蒲公英的約定 lyrics

小學籬芭旁的蒲公英　是記憶裏有味道的風景
午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音　多少年後也還是很好聽
將願望折紙飛機寄成信　因為我們等不到那流星
認真投決定命運的硬幣　卻不知道到底能去哪里
◆一起長大的約定　那樣清晰　
打過勾的我相信 　說好要一起旅行　
是你如今　唯一堅持的任性
在走廊上罰站打手心　我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓
我去到哪裏你都跟很緊　很多的夢在等待著進行
REPEAT
◆ 一起長大的約定　那樣真心　
與你聊不完的曾經 而我已經分不清　
你是友情　還是錯過的愛情

Secret 蒲公英的約定

Woot~~~

Went out with Stella today. Went to AMK Hub and i bought myself a new handphone!!! So happy!!! It's Sony Ericsson W850I. Black colour one. Haha... Damn nice sia, the pink one is nicer i tink!!! Lol... Anyway, we went to shop for a while then we went straight for our Kbox session! From 12pm to 6pm, LONG rite? But i managed to sing until i shiok. Duno bout her though... Haha... Didn't sing quite well today so will be looking to improve next time. Well, what can i say? Stella can really sing sia!! She can hit quite high(pitch la)...Haha... After our Kbox session, we went to Mac for our dinner and then sent her home. Manage to reach home around 8pm(I think)... So quite ok. Still transferring files to my new H/P, duno what time will finish... Haha...

Well, got to go liao la... Peace Out!!!

Whoo Hoo...

Hey, back from camp at last sia. This whole week ah, been quite boring in camp la... Injured my back once again on Wednesday(I think)... Sian rite. But for most of this week, instead of training, our whole squad played soccer and i simply relish it man!!!! WAHAHA.... The starting of this week wasn't at all good la... Dun feel like myself at all man. On Wed then my feelings and sense came back to me. If not, i'm actually jus like a walking dead. On appearance, i looked happy and sounded happy but in me, it's like shit man.

Well, as for today, i booked out early coz me and 2 other friends went to Changi Point to participate in the SEA Course SBT(Senario Base Test). All 3 of us were to pretend as Chinamen. But in actual fact, i was to be an agent who buy illegal immigrants while m other friends are those who sell the illegal immigrants to me. And in short we are to be arrested by the officers. Left HTA at 12 plus and reached there at 1plus going 2. The waiting is the most boring part, from 2pm to 4.30pm sia. And somemore, i forgot to bring my h/p with me as i kept it in my walk-out bag which was left in the Police van. So it was damn sian la. Then in the end, the SEA Course officers almost failed this test as they weren't able to arrest us when we were together. Anyway, made a new friend and his a GURKHA!!!! Funny guy, his name is Amrit if i'm not wrong. He's damn fit la... Power sia. So happy top make a new friend like him.

Ah, managed to reach home ard 5plus 6pm. Going out for dinner soon la... Then as for tmr, will be gg Kbox after a LONG LONG time....HAHA.... We'll see how first la... Peace out...

Sian

Hiya, well, a few more minutes and i'm gonna head back to camp le. The feeling is damn sucky and sian sia. Today also marks the end of my Light Duty period and back to normal duties le. Haha, duno shld be happy or sian about it also. Will be booking on Friday again this week coz my last IPPT is last week!!! So glad that it has ended. Been a great torture for me also.
Well, been missing .......(for u to fill up) and i jus duno why. There's this feeling in my heart that has been making me very tired and sometimes, it really make me tink lots of stupid stuff. Well, i'm not gonna list it out here coz i guess no one will be interested oso, am i right?!?! Haha... All i can do now is to look forward to next Saturday when i can go out again(I hope la). Hoping so hard but there's a feeling that's telling me that most prob i will be alone next week. Haha... Well, this is jus wad i feel. Hmm... Mabe it's a "training" for me to master. Haha...
Most prob getting a new h/p next week when my pay is being cashed into my account. Gonna get a Sony Ericsson phone. But have to see hw first la. What can i say? This afternoon was kind of feverish again after my jogging session. Can u believe it? I jog from my house to Serangoon Ave 3. A longer distance than my usual routine jog. And i'm so proud to announce that i've managed to complete it without walking along the way. WAHAHAHA.... As for the rest of the day, i went to compasspoint to jalan myself and then stay home all the way. There are some things i wanted to type in here but i think it's to my own discretion bah...
Oh, here's one thought that struck my mind: What does people think about me? How do they feel when they are around me?
And many more. Haix... Haha... At least i'm not thinking too much like i was before. So that's good news. Well, got to go back camp le, my uncle is waiting for me. Will update again when i'm back.

Chao~~~

Hey

Hey hi, back again. Well, short to say, this week in camp is like hell. I wasn't in training for the whole of last week due to my Light Duty(sprained my back). Then on Tues, our squad have to attend some ceremony but there was no space and we were told to go back to rest in barrack. On our way back, we were caught by 2 FIs due to our improper marching and coz i was in full uniform(orders from our OC), i was punished together oso. And at that time, i forgot that i was on light duty oso... How silly and idiot can i be?!?!?!?! Nevermind that now, anyway, i'm gonna POP soon(hope so). So happy bout it.
Went out with Stella yesterday to AMK Hub. Went to had our lunch at Sumo House and then we went to shop. We went to look for h/p and i managed to find one h/p tat i kindda like. It is Sony Ericsson W810I(if i'm not wrong). Quite gd i tink but the camera is not as good as my Samsung phone. 2 MEGAPIXEL ONLY!!!!!!! So little sia... Sad case. Then afterwhich we went to catch a movie: Narnia. I thought she got watch the 1st part until she told me after the movie that she nv watch it. Haha, so stupid sia me... Sent her home after the movie cause her parents got cook.
Afterwhich, I went home and started to have a stomach-upset and feel feverish. The feeling is terrible sia. Even though i kenna these 2 shit, i continue on to train myself. Managed to complete my personal training la. So kind of satisfied. Sometimes in life, i tink i'm jus kindda unlucky don't yer tink?? HAHA... Jinx man!!! Duno to laugh bout it or cry bout it also. Haix, wad to do?!?!?! The answer is short and simple: NOTHING!!!!!! Got to go liao la.

Peace Out!!!!!

Hehe

Hey yo, back to update again! Managed to book out on Fri due to me having light duty coz of my backache after IPPT. So kind of lucky cuz most of my squad members took MC on Thurs which angered my OC alot that we almost get confined. Those bastards!!! Anyway, went out with Stella today to Vivo to watch Speed Racer. It was damn nice. The graphics were GOOD ( and i meant it!!!) and the racing was superb!!! Well, after which, we went to Bugis to shop. Managed to see Aunty Iris, Aunty Jaslyn and Aunty Janet for a LONG LONG time!!! SO lucky sia. Bought myself a Billabong cap, brown colour one. It was very nice, Stella chose for me one. Really like it a lot. Stella, if u're reading this, Jus wanna say that i like it a lot. Thanks!!! Haha... Tmr might go and buy an external harddisk la. At last sia, if not my com no space le. Well, got to go. Watch DVD le... Lol... Peace Out!!!

^.^

This is the cap that i bought yesterday with Stella. Brown colour Billabong cap. Nice, isn't it??? Like it a lot!!! Haha. Thanks a lot ah!!! ^^ Gonna wear it everytime i go out with her. HAHA... Look kindda nice in it, that's wad she told me and wad i kindda feel it myself... XP