Yawn~~~ Oh man, was at my cousin's house. Managed to have a short nap just now and feel quite energised now... But once the thoughts of stepping back into camp struck my mind, all my energy just saps away by itself... When will my POP arrive??? Please be fast rather than slow!!!! Both my cousins are playing Dragon Fable on Net while i jus sit and blog... BORING~~~ T.T Have to go back to my grandparents' place b4 heading back to camp!!! She's very busy today coz she's rushing her projects... Still didn't quite have a chance to tok to her yet... Hope that i don annoy or irritate her la... Actually wad i wan to do is just to support and cheer her on by her side...HAHA... Mustn't make her feel sad again by toking bout those things... Have to control and think wad i have to speak.... Just don wan the same things to happen twice... Her school term is starting tmr and i wished she will have the best start to it esp when her exams are around the corner, I hope and pray that she will be able to overcome and pass all her exams with flying colours!!!
Stepping into camp today means that i will only get to book out on Friday again... This week will be my study week... Which means we will have laights off at a LATER timing!!! Whoo Hoo~~~ That's what our OC told us la... Haha... We just hope it's true la... Hope that i will manage to get to tok to her in camp this week la... Praying hard!!! Hoping and crossing my fingers along the way...
Wishing!!!! :)~~~ T.T~~~
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Phew...
Phew, at last, feeling much more better than this freaking morning...HAHA... Today is my youngest cousin's 1st month birthday, what we called MAN YUE in chinese, and will be going up to celebrate later before i report back to camp. My parents and sis have all went up except me... Left without telling me oso... They power sia... Haha... Wonder what we're gonna do later when i went up...
Actual fact, i'm feeling damn tired and bored coz got nothing to do and then have to go back camp later... Oh how i wish that my POP is tomorrow but no. My POP seems so near but yet so far!!! News came to my ears that it might be postponed to 1st August.... Damn long sia...
One of my friend whom i never contacted for a long time called me just now! Haha, so happy to have "found" a friend back after so long... Tok lots and lots of cock!!!! :P Seriously, at least it raised my "morale" to a certain level but there's still something that i'm waiting...
There's like a hole/emptiness in my heart and i'm searching for it... Wish me luck in finding it soon, ya!!!! Hope this coming week will be a good week also! Kampatei!!!
GO!GO!GO!
Actual fact, i'm feeling damn tired and bored coz got nothing to do and then have to go back camp later... Oh how i wish that my POP is tomorrow but no. My POP seems so near but yet so far!!! News came to my ears that it might be postponed to 1st August.... Damn long sia...
One of my friend whom i never contacted for a long time called me just now! Haha, so happy to have "found" a friend back after so long... Tok lots and lots of cock!!!! :P Seriously, at least it raised my "morale" to a certain level but there's still something that i'm waiting...
There's like a hole/emptiness in my heart and i'm searching for it... Wish me luck in finding it soon, ya!!!! Hope this coming week will be a good week also! Kampatei!!!
GO!GO!GO!
Argh
Heck... Dirreahoe.... Why is this shit happening to me again!!!! Arghh~~~~ Hate myself for it.....
Sick...
Hey, couldn't manage to sleep well and also woke up this early and nothing to do. Don tink i'm feeling too well... Well, at least i know that she's ok... That's all i can ask for, for now... Sometimes i wonder if i'm just too good like my cousin said bout me or i'm jus putting up a front of being happy and strong... There are times when i really needed someone to be near me and encourage me especially for the whole of last week in camp when my squad IC and his friends "declared war" on our bunk... Ivan, jus wanna thank you for talking to me and hearing out my problems and toking cock with me to cheer me up... Really appreciate it... Fuck... Why am i crying for what shit.... Arghhh~~~~ Stop it Terence.... You're a man... Man dun cry that easily....
To be true, normally i use to act up a front in front of people so they won't get worried for me but in me, the hurt, the sadness jus filled up in me when i'm alone whereever i am.... And i just keep thinking things that i shouldn't to make myself sad and getting emo... Wasn't that good for the last whole week of training for me... Felt like it was a shitty week.... As u can see that my first problem(on top)... And adding to that, i fainted during training (please keep it silent for those who are reading this and are my family members!!!) All i can do is to hope the coming week can be better.... My law test is coming soon and i can feel the pressure heaping on me and i for now, really dun wan to feel pressured at all sides, just for now....
Sometimes, i'm wondering what i can do to improve myself to be a better person and so to all who knows me and are reading my blog, please do not spare your criticism on me, will change for the better BUT after my test then do that.... I also know it's not good for others to worry about me that's why i usually don tell my problems to people... I just dun feel good letting them worried for me like Ivan, my family members, Stella. My mind is feeled with so much things right now that i dun no what to type oso... I think my weakness is so much more then my strengths!!! I can list my weaknesses out man:
1) Selfish at times
2) Self-centred at times
3) Naggy
4) Short tempered at times
5) Gets emo and it usually comes quite badly!
6) Thinks too much
7) Untidy
8) Lazy at times
9) Judgmental to those i dun like
These are some of them and there are more that i can't think of.... My strengths are for all you out there to list out and find out... Really feel very tired but really can't do anything about it... ARGHHH~~~~~ Just feel like killing myself and end all the things and troubles... Relationships with people can really be complicated, doesn't it... It's so fucking sticky that u can't get yourself out..... The words "Hate you forever"/"go and die, i never want to tok to you" can really knock sense into people.... As in make a person wonder if he's really doing the right thing.... But there's nothing one can do... Jus to swallow it down and be sad bout it...
Haix.... There's really too much in my mind for me to write... My head is spinning again... Duno why feeling giddy for the past few days.... And the problem is i can't sleep at all... All i wanted is to have a good normal life, with someone there for me, that everyone will be happy when they're with me and not feel sad or emo and many more for me to list out... But i dun think any of this have come true yet for me...
Heaven, are you playing a joke on me or you just simply want me to die?!?!?! If it's the second choice, jus do it, stop playing jokes on me!!! I had enough of it!!! This might make some of you angry with me but please dun be angry, coz that is what i'm feeling rite now... Jus treat it as i'm typing shit.... Haix....
:'(
To be true, normally i use to act up a front in front of people so they won't get worried for me but in me, the hurt, the sadness jus filled up in me when i'm alone whereever i am.... And i just keep thinking things that i shouldn't to make myself sad and getting emo... Wasn't that good for the last whole week of training for me... Felt like it was a shitty week.... As u can see that my first problem(on top)... And adding to that, i fainted during training (please keep it silent for those who are reading this and are my family members!!!) All i can do is to hope the coming week can be better.... My law test is coming soon and i can feel the pressure heaping on me and i for now, really dun wan to feel pressured at all sides, just for now....
Sometimes, i'm wondering what i can do to improve myself to be a better person and so to all who knows me and are reading my blog, please do not spare your criticism on me, will change for the better BUT after my test then do that.... I also know it's not good for others to worry about me that's why i usually don tell my problems to people... I just dun feel good letting them worried for me like Ivan, my family members, Stella. My mind is feeled with so much things right now that i dun no what to type oso... I think my weakness is so much more then my strengths!!! I can list my weaknesses out man:
1) Selfish at times
2) Self-centred at times
3) Naggy
4) Short tempered at times
5) Gets emo and it usually comes quite badly!
6) Thinks too much
7) Untidy
8) Lazy at times
9) Judgmental to those i dun like
These are some of them and there are more that i can't think of.... My strengths are for all you out there to list out and find out... Really feel very tired but really can't do anything about it... ARGHHH~~~~~ Just feel like killing myself and end all the things and troubles... Relationships with people can really be complicated, doesn't it... It's so fucking sticky that u can't get yourself out..... The words "Hate you forever"/"go and die, i never want to tok to you" can really knock sense into people.... As in make a person wonder if he's really doing the right thing.... But there's nothing one can do... Jus to swallow it down and be sad bout it...
Haix.... There's really too much in my mind for me to write... My head is spinning again... Duno why feeling giddy for the past few days.... And the problem is i can't sleep at all... All i wanted is to have a good normal life, with someone there for me, that everyone will be happy when they're with me and not feel sad or emo and many more for me to list out... But i dun think any of this have come true yet for me...
Heaven, are you playing a joke on me or you just simply want me to die?!?!?! If it's the second choice, jus do it, stop playing jokes on me!!! I had enough of it!!! This might make some of you angry with me but please dun be angry, coz that is what i'm feeling rite now... Jus treat it as i'm typing shit.... Haix....
:'(
Saturday, June 21, 2008
My Stupidity does it...
Hey, actually, today not in a mood to blog but nevermind la... Went out this morning to the MAC near Stella's house as we planned to study there in the morning before we go watch movie. So we studied til around 11 plus going 12pm. Then we went to Doby Ghaut to watch "You don't mss with the Zohan" at The Cathay. After which, we walked to Bugis to shop. The show that we watched was funny but wasn't what we have expected. LOL...
We rested at Bugis Yakun before we went home. And jus the slipped of my tongue, i said something wrong to remind her of some sad things of the past. Really feel very bad about it. Stella, if you're reading this, jus wanna say really very very paiseh... It slipped my mind, please dun get mad at me la... kk??? Really very paiseh about it. Feeling very bad now, that's why didn't have much to blog about either... No mood to eat also (Duno why)....
Jus now after i reached home, jus feel a little giddy and very emo for duno what shit.... Haix... Hate this emo feeling.... It's killing me..... Someone help me.... :'(
We rested at Bugis Yakun before we went home. And jus the slipped of my tongue, i said something wrong to remind her of some sad things of the past. Really feel very bad about it. Stella, if you're reading this, jus wanna say really very very paiseh... It slipped my mind, please dun get mad at me la... kk??? Really very paiseh about it. Feeling very bad now, that's why didn't have much to blog about either... No mood to eat also (Duno why)....
Jus now after i reached home, jus feel a little giddy and very emo for duno what shit.... Haix... Hate this emo feeling.... It's killing me..... Someone help me.... :'(
蒲公英的約定 lyrics
小學籬芭旁的蒲公英 是記憶裏有味道的風景
午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音 多少年後也還是很好聽
將願望折紙飛機寄成信 因為我們等不到那流星
認真投決定命運的硬幣 卻不知道到底能去哪里
◆一起長大的約定 那樣清晰
打過勾的我相信 說好要一起旅行
是你如今 唯一堅持的任性
在走廊上罰站打手心 我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓
我去到哪裏你都跟很緊 很多的夢在等待著進行
REPEAT
◆ 一起長大的約定 那樣真心
與你聊不完的曾經 而我已經分不清
你是友情 還是錯過的愛情
午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音 多少年後也還是很好聽
將願望折紙飛機寄成信 因為我們等不到那流星
認真投決定命運的硬幣 卻不知道到底能去哪里
◆一起長大的約定 那樣清晰
打過勾的我相信 說好要一起旅行
是你如今 唯一堅持的任性
在走廊上罰站打手心 我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓
我去到哪裏你都跟很緊 很多的夢在等待著進行
REPEAT
◆ 一起長大的約定 那樣真心
與你聊不完的曾經 而我已經分不清
你是友情 還是錯過的愛情
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